The bride.

The light glinted off the polished chrome gun barrel belying its deadly nature. It almost looked beautiful, she thought, however its deadly design shattered any such fanciful notions in a hurry. As did the bleeding and crying man lying prone at her feet. She couldn't help but wonder on the rarity of such moments, especially in her life. Moments when it was a woman who was in complete control and it was a man who lay broken and bloodied, begging for an ounce of mercy that did not exist. Things had been so different thirty six hours ago she thought, everything seemed so alive and all things seemed possible. Now she felt only death and rage, anger and strangely enough, calm.

He was blubbering something about never doing it again. His mouth was writing cheques she knew his ass couldn't cover but that didn't seem to matter to him. Strange how everything else just vanished in the blink of an eye, when one's life might end in a blink. Of course such tenuous links between life and death always existed, but now it was real for him. The knowledge of this fact was the entirety of his reality to the exclusion of everything else. As his soiled pants could well atest. His blubbering and squealling pleas were like the buzz of some annoying insect in her ears. She wanted so badly to swat that bug, to end that infernal buzzing once and for all.

Strange that it should all end here, she thought as off in the distance cars could be heard making their way to the city. But here they were all alone, no one to bother them, no one to make a last ditch effort to save the miserable creature before her. She looked past the shimmering sands to the distant city, the city where they were to be married. She was struck by the realization that at that very moment she was to be walking down the aisle. His cries for mercy brought her back to the task at hand. The weight of the gun once again became a real thing in her hand. Her arm suddenly felt strained, her mind tired, her whole body exhausted. I just want to sleep she said to herself, just for a moment. Her eyes began to tear, her body to tremble, her hand began to shake.

"NO!" She screamed into the desert air. All at once the crushing weight of the past days events bared down upon her turning her trembling weakness into trembling rage, her tears of sorrow into tears of fierce resolve. All at once everything became still, everything crystalized into a moment of pure focus and clarity. Gone were the doubts, gone was the buzzing in her ears. It was all replaced with the sound of rushing blood boiling with rage, vengeance and murderous intent. She could still hear the echoes of her anguished scream fading into the distance when she drowned them out with the solitary blast from her gun. Everything remained still for what seemed like an eternity as she stared down at the twisted and ragged mess that used to be a human head. Then as suddenly as the moment came it left and all she thought about was how sweet sleep would be as her body collapsed to the ground.

And the world keeps on turning.

Well 2007 is upon us.

I can't say that I know what the new year will bring. Probably more of the same.

One thing that changed in 2007 was my not having a girlfriend anymore. She decided that we'd be better off as friends. She was even kind enough to say so via email. How nice of her.

Oh well, I can't say that I mind the relationship ending. It was actually kind of interesting that as I was walking home I was thinking that I wasn't really getting anything out of the relationship and probably wouldn't mind if it ended. I get home and there awaiting me was the email. They say that everything is in the timing. This was pretty good timing.

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I don't really know what to write at the moment. I just felt that I should write something.

School starts up again later today. I'm really learning to hate it. It seems like such a waste of time, money and energy. I just hope that when its all said and done that I feel like I've actually learned something.

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Work is a right royal mess. I'd love nothing better than to confront the overbearing staff member that is making things unbearable but I have to think of paying the bills. It really sucks. I just keep telling myself "keep your mouth shut, you've only got another year to go." Another miserable year. Teaching better be worth it.

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Well it looks like 2007 is beginning much like 2006; alone, broke and working a job that drives me nuts. That light at the end of the tunnel better be glorious sunshine over a sandy beach and not a set of headlights.

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Happy new year everyone.

Lets just hope that 2007 ends better than it started and that when we look back on it we can say that it was better than 2006.

Good luck.